Anxious

That's how I'm feeling. I just can't put my finger on exactly why. So I thought I'd come here and try to write my way out of it. .

Tomorrow I am working. We hold new member orientation's at my work on Saturdays four times a year to help those who can't make it during the week because they have other jobs or family obligations. It means a 6 day week for me yet I don't mind it. The day for me involves teaching and I really like that. I get to spend about 6 hours with the new members and show them our REALTOR Code of Ethics and how it applies to their business. I used to be very nervious in front of groups but since I've had this job I've gotten much more comfortable and found that I am pretty good at it. :)

Tomorrow evening Dave and I will be at the Lions Beef n Beer. All proceeds from Lions' events  goes to support the blind and diabetic as well as local community groups that ask for assistance (libraries and places like that). I'm not a beer drinker but we usually have soda or iced tea too, thankfully.

On Sunday I will run. 15 miles I hope. I usually do this on Saturdays but as I just told you I have to work. I put out a call for company hoping that some of my running buddies might want to run Sunday too. But since the forecast is for rain, I'm not holding out much hope for company. I can't skip it though. I need to stay on track training for the Gettysburg Marathon. Next weekend I will be in Texas for the weekend and likely not get much running in so it is really important not to miss this weekend.

Why Texas? Well I'll tell you. I think I've mentioned that I am the organizer for my running group, USAFit/Philly. Well the parent group USAFit brings the organizers together once a year for an in person meeting. That will be this next weekend March 11-13. They pay our airfare and hotel to come down and attend. This year it is in Houston. I am looking forward to it. Last year I found it very motivational. I need some of that right now. And I think this is the source of my anxiety. I love the running group. I love the being he organizer. It is such fun doing someting I enjoy and being part of something that others enjoy and something the helps them get to their goals. Once the season starst (May 14) I will be great. Until then though I am tasked with the job of recruiting members. A certain number of members will return from year to year but not all so we need new member to keep the group going.

Recruiting is hard work. It's kind of like selling (members do pay a fee to belong) and I do not like selling. I have a budget and although USAFit does not require us to MAKE money the budget conscious person in me will feel bad if we lose money. If we break even i'll be happy. So I do feel pressure to make sure we have enough members to do so. I don't like this kind of pressure. I keep wondering what else I should be doing to make it happen.

Forutnately there are so many other really nice things going on in my life. Like the teaching tomorrow and the Lions benefit tomorrow night and running on Sunday.